I don't really know how to start this because it's quite hard to be honest, not just with you, but with myself. It's a subject that for the last year or so has been a bit of a sore subject for me. I started this blogging thing as a casual hobby, something to get me through University. It was something I enjoyed whole-heartedly, I used to rush home from work or from my classes with a bag full of Superdrug's finest makeup products and I'd sit down for hours and hours of blog post writing and social networking with people I considered my equals. I suppose when I started blogging it was an easier time for me - no real commitments, very few friends. Blogging quickly became a job for me, but a job I loved - one where I got to work with some of the greatest of beauty companies. I got to work with my online best friends and I was honestly so, so happy with the blogging community for around 2-3 years.
Over the last year I have honestly become disheartened with blogging. For those who have been with me since the start, you'll know that I used to blog daily - these days it's hard for me to even write more than five posts a month. I feel lost within a community which at one point I felt wanted me there. But now I can't help but feel like I no longer belong here. Friends who started blogging around the same time as me, have far surpassed me - their blogs becoming more and more popular whilst I allowed my flame to flicker out. My brain registering competition, but not wanting to bother. It should never feel like a competition. If you are doing this for that reason, you're doing it all wrong.
I wish I knew how to fix it. I wish I knew how to get my blogging mojo back, but no matter what I do and however hard I try, my fingers just don't want to type. It's not even like I don't care about what I write about anymore, because I do. I'm still just as into beauty products, and I'm still keeping up to date with trends. But my desire to report it has gone - after all, what's the point of putting your opinion out there if you feel like nobody will read it anyway?