Dear Michael...[R.I.P] One Year On


So it's currently the 16th of February and I've been thinking about writing this for a few days now, though admittedly I still don't know where to start or what to say. It's almost been a full year since you left us and photos of you have been popping up all over. It's almost like you're trying to remind us that this is your time of year. 
"Your time of year" oh, how I truly wish it wasn't. I shouldn't have to remember you, you should just be here. That's how it was meant to be, you should of been here with us all, making inappropriate jokes, walking around with your pants down and drinking far too much. You shouldn't be off somewhere in the great unknown. Although where-ever you are, I do hope that you are causing an awful amount of chaos. 

At this exact moment in time I have "So I Thought" by Flyleaf on, it used to be a song I considered to be one of my favourites when we where besties, and now I can't listen to it without thinking about you. It's funny how the song has come full circle for me - "Fight the tears with pretty smiles and lies about the times. A year goes by and I can't talk about it." - but I digress. This post isn't supposed to be about me, it's supposed to be about you. Wonderful, lovely you. 

This is a difficult post to write, and I'm 100% certain I won't be the only one telling the whole of the internet just how much we all miss you. I don't even see or speak to half of your friends any more, but just through Facebook I can see just how much of a difference you have made to people's lives. It's so inspiring to see your brothers and your close friends living their lives for you. Doing things that you loved to do and organising meet-ups so everyone stays in touch. You have single handedly brought so many people together - in life and in death. I hope that you're proud of everything you are seeing from those you love because everyone has been trying so hard to make sure you are never ever forgotten. Not that anyone could ever forget you Mikey, you would never let that happen! 

I'm literally going through all of your photos on Facebook and it's funny to think about how young we were when we were going to Live Lounge and taking stupid photographs every single weekend. Those photos seemed like nothing at the time, but now they mean everything to me. I am incredibly grateful that I have those memories of us and the pictures to back it up with. 

When I was younger, people used to say to me "you can't just be friends with a boy, it doesn't work like that" - in some ways I think they were right. You weren't just my friend, you were my very bestest friend in the whole wide world, for a long time you were the only person I could trust. 

For me, you were the sparkle in a dark room. I just couldn't be sad around you. We may of had our ups and downs in our friendship, everyone knows about how we used to make each other so angry. We'd argue like enemies at times, but when it came down to it, you where always there for me no matter what. There have been times in the last year where I've seriously needed you to be there to tell me to sort my shit out, like you did so many times whilst you were alive. You where always so good at putting people back onto the right path.

I still have our conversations saved on Facebook and every so often I'll go back and look at them. It's ridiculous because they are such stupid conversations, consisting of you telling me who your latest lady-friend is and talking for an hour about how good your jawline is (sorry - you spending an hour telling me how good your jawline is and me replying with "I don't care" over and over again). 

I actually went to see a psychic not long after you'd passed away. I was genuinely convinced you might come through for me but unfortunately you didn't. The psychic was a bit of a charlatan to be quite honest, nothing she said about any of us was correct. I was so, so jealous when Aleshia told me she thought you had come through for her at the Spiritualist Church. I keep waiting for a sign from you, to tell me that you're still knocking around, but there has been nothing. I'm not sure if that's a good or a bad thing. I guess not many people believe in that kind of stuff but I'd believe in anything if it meant that I got to speak to you one last time. 

I think what I'm really trying to say is that I really do miss you, so very much. I am still harbouring a lot of guilt and sadness inside me because of everything that happened with our friendship. There isn't a day that passes by where I don't think about you. You have made such an impact on my life, as I'm sure you have with so many other people. I will forever have a Michael shaped hole in my heart. I'm sure you'd think this post is ridiculous and soppy, as probably do many people. Those who knew our friendship would understand I think. In fact, anyone who knew you would understand. This post was necessary, you deserve all the reignition in the world. 

I think I'm starting to ramble a bit now so I'm going to finish this post here. I am pretty sure there is no internet in the afterlife, so you're probably never going to read this, but I think it's a nice thing to do. I'd like to look back on posts about you in 10/20 years time and fully remember how I felt about you and what amazing things you did for others. I don't ever want my memories to get changed or lost as life goes on. 

I hope you're causing chaos up there Mikey. I love you forever. 

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Spoil Yourself!

I am a gigantic fan of spoiling myself, I'm always buying things I don't need (it's probably one of the reasons why I'm in debt), but sometimes I believe it is completely necessary to spoil yourself. After all, you are a wonderful person and you deserve to give yourself a few gifts now and then.

So without further rambling, I have found a few goodies that you might like! So if you're feeling giving (to yourself) then please read on!

Yves Rocher - Le Parfum Comme Une Evidence* - £51
"The intense beauty of the chypre accord is revealed in this truly magnificent new fragrance. Intense and concentrated, its glamorous, collector's pear-spray bottle releases an elegant cloud of fragrance with undeniable presence.....perfect for evenings and special occasions."

I really adore this perfume/fragrance. The bottle is absolutely adorable and spraying it makes me feel like an old Hollywood Movie Star like Marilyn Monroe. It has an intense and concentrated fragrance that is perfect for evening, nights out and special occasions. I must say that I was absolutely obsessed with the smell of it from the word go, it's fresh, floral and I'm 100% sure everyone would love it. I have said before how much I love Yves Rocher, they are a fantastic brand to get behind that use all natural ingredients and don't test on animals.

Chanel Incandescente Lipstick - £26
"One red. One style. A woman's allure is defined. With its line of rich and luminous shades, more intense than ever. ROUGE ALLURE offers a radiant and satiny makeup result with optimal hold, in an ultra-smooth, meltaway texture."

This is one for the lipstick addicts like myself. I've noticed that these lipsticks have been on a few blogs recently and there is a reason for that - they are absolutely stunning. All of the colours available are stunning shades of brown, red and pink. Perfect for the upcoming Spring months.

LDN:Skins Instant Tan Lotion* - £24
"Perfect for a beautiful golden tan in an instant. This luxurious, non-tacky lotion glides effortlessly over skin and dries in minutes to reveal an instant golden tan."

My favourite ever instant tanning lotion from another fantastic brand. LDN:Skins has been exploding onto the British Fashion Scene over the last few years with celebrities and designers acquiring this 'must have tan'. Tanning is something I love to do during the Summer months, nobody wants to look this pale when it's glorious outside, and I know that I'll be using this instant tanning lotion regularly to get a gorgeous golden glow. The light lavender fragrance revolutionises the ‘tell-tale smell of tanning’, whilst the light, smooth textures are easy to apply and absorbs rapidly for effortless and flawless results.

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ClipHair Ombre Double Weft Review


It is no secret that I have been trying to grow my hair for the last few years. After I had a mental moment a few years back and chopped off my gorgeous long locks, I've been doing everything to get them back! It's been around three years since that dreaded day and my hair has grown immensely and I've been so happy with it recently...but it's true to say that I am never happy for long. My main problem with my natural hair is the ends are so thin. No matter what I do with my hair they always look scruffy. I also have qualms about cutting the ends as well, because I want the extra length, so up until now I've just lived with it.  

I used to wear clip in hair extensions every single day of my life, but over the last year I've been embracing my natural hair. My natural hair is currently chest length(ish) but I still wanted it to be an inch or so longer, purely so that my hair will look nice and thick on nights out. That's where ClipHair comes in to save the day.

I decided on the Ombre/Dip Dye Double Clip In Weft from ClipHair. It is a chocolate brown colour on the top and a golden blonde colour at the bottom. This weft retails at £69.99, though there are deals and codes you can apply which will give you certain amounts of percentage off at certain points in the month.

The Packaging
The packaging is basically the standard hair extension packaging that most companies use. It is a tried and tested way of packaging and storing hair extensions, so I have absolutely no gripes about this. The extensions were presented beautifully, they looked so neat and tidy in there, I almost didn't want to take them out! (almost!) 

The Extensions
ClipHair boast that these are 100% Remy human hair which is extremely obvious when touching the extensions - they are incredibly soft and silky! I don't think that I have ever had extensions that feel so lovely before, I really cannot express this enough. I have hair extensions in the past that have said they are 100% human hair but have actually been a mix of synthetic hair and human hair. This is all well and good until you want to straighten or curl the hair and then BAM they are ruined. These hair extensions also super thick, the double weft is really a life saver and if you have a small head like me you probably won't need to put all of the pieces in. They allow you to go from greasy, flat hair to glamorous, super model in less than five minutes. Another plus is that the hair doesn't thin out at the ends, with most extensions they are thick at the top and flimsy at the bottom, this is absolutely not the case with ClipHair's extensions, they stay the same thickness throughout. 

My only complaint (and to be honest, it's not much of a complaint, more a personal preference) is that the ends are blunt. I know that most people like or don't mind blunt ends, but for me it doesn't look too natural. I know that I will probably end up layering the extensions and cutting them in at some point, but for now the blunt ends will continue to annoy me. I don't think I've ever had a pair of extensions before that have had blunt ends like this. 

Overall I'm really happy with ClipHair's double weft extensions and I cannot wait to go on a night out to show them off! I would definitely recommend them to my friends as they arrived incredibly quickly (the next day!) and are of such good quality. If you are looking for great hair at great prices then you really cannot go wrong with ClipHair. 

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