I have literally been thinking about writing this for the last two weeks but I've honestly just had no time. Between working every day and Christmas, New Year - well let's just say it's been a hard month and I feel like I've had absolutely no time to myself. Hopefully that's all changed now and my life is going to get back to being somewhat normal!
2015 was a disappointing year for me, it started off so well. I felt on top of the world this time last year. I was half way through my degree, had an amazing job at Waterstones and was working part-time in a little production team, creating films for the likes of John Lewis and Thwaites. I was so, so proud of what I was accomplishing but half way through the year it all fell to pieces. Firstly, I was made redundant at Waterstones which absolutely and completely broke my heart. Still to this day I can't walk into the store or read a book properly without getting upset, I know that may seem ridiculous but I honestly loved that job more than anything and losing that job also meant that I lost contact with two of the most amazing co-workers ever to exist. Not long after losing my actual job it all went to crap with my little side job. I was promised full-time work, and had that chance ripped from beneath me. I won't go into much detail and I don't really want to hurt anyones feelings, but I will say that nothing hurts more than having someone you so utterly and completely trusted and admired to let - not just me, but others - down in such a terrible way. I ended up feeling so lost, I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life. No money, no job, so many bills to pay. My poor mother and father had to literally pick me up off the ground and I will never be more grateful for the things that they did for me this year. But I have to admit that I'm still mentally recovering from these events and probably will be for a long time. It's been a real hit on my mental health and my own confidence.
It's not all been doom and gloom though. I finished my degree with a 2:1 which was amazing. I worked so, so hard and it was a great accomplishment. I went on a gorgeous holiday with Kieron to Madeira and we celebrated our four year anniversary! I ended up getting a new job as well which meant that I was no longer in debt. It also has meant that I've been able to save up for a house and another holiday - both of these things will be happening in the next few months. I also became best friends with Katie and we opened a wedding photography and videography business JK Studios together. My aim for this year is to fully get JK Studios off the ground, we just need a bit more money and a bit more time to get things fully started. I've had so many amazing nights out with my friends in 2015 as well, and I truly found out who my real friends were. I have had a lot less arguments when drunk this year, which is an accomplishment for me. In fact, I think I've become a nicer drunk and Hurricane Jane has definitely been out a lot less.
So far, 2016 has been an exciting prospect for me. At the moment, even though I'm still feeling low in myself, I'm quite optimistic. I'm starting the year going to see one of my all time, favourite musicals Rocky Horror, live in Manchester with my 5 besties. I feel like I've been waiting to see this show since the day I was born. Nobody loves Rocky Horror more than me! I've got my outfit all sorted - lots of black leather - and I've got less than a week to wait. Oh I can't wait! Next month I've got my Works Christmas Do (in February hahahaa what is that all about?!) and me and Kieron are also going to go to Tenerife on a cheeky little holiday. In March Kieron and I will be celebrating our five year anniversary which is insane and we will start looking for a house to move into together. These next six months are hopefully going to be amazing.
I'm ready for a big change this year. I think I did a lot of growing up last year and had to deal with a lot, but this year is the year of sorting myself out. I've started eating a lot healthier and that's already making me feel so much better within myself. I've been watching so much Niomi Smart on youtube that all I can think about it granola and berries at the moment!
I'm also going to start making more and more youtube videos. I have a lot planned, I just need a new camera and a bit more time but it's so exciting. I'm ready to take my blog to the next level, which means I'm going to have to put more effort into being apart of the community. I definitely lost my way with this blog last year but 2016 is going to be the year of Poptarts Beauty.
So fingers crossed it's going to be a great year.